Ayarane Project

So, uh, my ankles and feet used to be all swollen and such. Not anymore. Yay?

…not quite. Awesome as some visible sign of weight loss may be (along with a noticeable stamina boost), it comes with an extremely painful companiom– my lower legs are itchy as hell and I can’t put any pressure on them (roughly below the shin to the ankle) without it being OMFG OW. I don’t have any pain/itch cream right now so the best I can do is reapply lotion and keep a cool cloth on it when possible, and unless I’m up and about (and not for very long because of burning due to clothes contact) I’ve been in bed. I can still log into WoW and such from Yggdrasil but aside from auction house I can’t do much via a DiNovo Mini keyboard…

I don’t know. Did I do something wrong, is it a freak occurrence or is this just what happens and I have to suck it up? Can’t get to a doctor until early July (which I have to do anyway to reup my synthroid). Mother is no help, of course, refusing to believe I’m actually do anything (I am, just under the table else I’d trip the Drama Monster alarm and she wouldn’t believe me anyway). WTF. What did she think I was doing, scaling back my food, getting up from my desk more often and such? I was on the verge of starting daily morning walks until this burning nonsense started up and, well, it just seems a bit unwise to do that for the moment. Ow…

I wasn’t even going to document any of this, either. See, I take issue with the weight loss culture… I hate the attention and how it can make people crazy obsessive. (Ever see that one commercial where the lady is all “look at me, doods, I look GOOD.” Ugh, that “toddler beating on a drum” mentality, do not want.) I will not buy into that insanity. I will not become those people who in the process of losing weight become attention whores. Just… no. All I want is to be able to get in and out of the Yoshi Car without feeling like much of a squashed marshmallow, and maybe be able to walk a bit without being wiped out. I know that in going it alone I lose out on any kind of support system and such, but I don’t think I could take all the attention it would invite… Is it strange to think that?

Well, so much for doing that discreetly… That’s all I’ll say on the subject for now.

In other news, I cleared FFXIII the other day. :) I’ll do a more, ah, spoiler-laden post later, but for now… is it me, or is Fang the new Balthier? (One could make the same argument for Snow, too.)