The one where Yoshi feels like a phony

Maybe I’m overthinking things. Maybe I’m just overwhelmed by new tablet smell.

Part of me thinks the moment I open Sketchbook Pro on the Aegis, I’m going to fail and expose myself as a fraud who has absolutely no idea what she’s doing.

It’s a stupid fear, because I’ve already gone in to set up my toolbars and things, and I’ve a pretty good idea on how to manage flinging files back and forth between it and Blastoise (hai, Dropbox). I get this ridiculous fear of failing out of the gate every time I get a new piece of hardware, but the feeling is especially strong here. Part of me keeps hearing mother’s voice in the back of my head telling me that I don’t deserve this tablet and I’ll never amount to anything, even though in real life she is actually very happy that I got it and knows it was the right thing to do. WTF, self?

I also need to quit thinking about how this is a $500 tablet whose price tag I need to work off and quickly because the Magic Coin Block’s supply is dwindling and ohmygod I need to troll for commissions except everyone is broke and asdfasdkfjsalkd

Stop that.
It’s going to be alright. We’ll get takers soon enough, just be patient.

Semi-related: Dear California, can you stop with the heat wave now? :( I need new glasses really badly but I can’t go out in this awful hot weather without feeling like I’m going to die at any moment. Even if it’s a short walk from the curb to the interior of Ontario Mills and thus LensCrafters… this weather is still too much. All I’m asking for is mid-high 80’s. Please? ;_;

It’s not so much the surface heat as it is the air quality, it’s hard to breathe in that kind of environment. :|

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